Still madly in love with the stupid woman, in spite of the hurt she has caused too. It will mean selling the house (too new, no collateral and too expensive to remortgage on my own) and if I can't rent somewhere that allows pets, giving up 2x dogs I love to bits. And I might need brain surgery next year if my medication doesn't work.
But everyone keeps telling me 2015 will be a better year. I'm thinking 2016 or maybe even 2017.